If I had a choice...

If I had a choice, i would not even want to interfere. If I had a choice, i would just let go and enjoy the fun.

Yet, i dont feel i have a choice. Im in this awkward position that if i dont say anything, any major cock up will be my fault. If i say something more, my presence is deemed as interference. ZZZZZ

It's not that i dont want to let go. It's more of a responsibility to me. For i know any cock up, i'll be the guilty party, cos i have not pass down what i had learnt. And ultimately, I have to clean up the shit. It's quite fustrating in my position. I offered my advice so as to cover the loopholes as much as i could. I may sound sarcastic, for i was rather unpleased for such details are not covered in depth at this point of time, and the fact that i was always assured that everything is going smoothly.

Yet I dont feel appreciated, and more like a football being kicked around, a slave being ordered around. "Clash of commands"? I thought i have already assured ur that i wont interfere with the planning and execution during the meeting? Yet the next moment the response i get is "afraid of clash of command". And i have to be made to reassure ur to give ur a peace of mind. Please, Im not some power hungry freak, wanting to go around giving orders!!!

I dont care how ur load up ur bicycles and thats not even my concern. Yet the feedback was erm different pple have different working style, loading of bicycles is different. I dont even remember mentioning anything on loading of bicycles in my meeting. So what do u want to tell me? If u are unhappy with my interferrences, do tell me straight in the face! I can dont care about anything and just act as a senior participating in the camp!!